My heart is still hurt,
Its still hurt from people who I have loved the most in my life.

"Life will never be the same without you, Stuart"
One out of the millions of things I wish I could say to him.

Stuart is my ex, who was my first love, my best friend, the person who really gave life a meaning when there was almost nothing to live for.
I loved him, more than anything in this world.
Yet, as stupid as I was, I dumped him.
Yes, It was the right thing to do. We grew apart, we weren't those same two freshman crazy in puppy love anymore. We were growing up into young adults, young adults that just didn't match anymore.
Then he got hurt, about two months after we split up.
He got hit by a car.
We were FWB, for about a month or so until I started dating someone new.
Stuart and I were the best of friends during last summer,
Then, about two months ago he stood in front of my with no emotion in his eyes, and even a little smirk on his face.. Telling me that he "doesn't see a point in being my friend anymore". That he just doesn't want too anymore.
I was crushed.
He hurt my more than the ex that cheated on me.
I hate not being his friend,
Not hugging him,
Not seeing him smile,
Not looking into his pretty blue eyes,
I miss hearing his sing,
I miss watching him play guitar,
I missing just hanging out with him.
He made me utterly happy.